It took quite a long time to understand what is going around. Was it destined? I have no clue.But how many times?
We often create a set mindset within ourselves that now “we know what we want and what we have to do”. Well, it is called attaining maturity, deep diving of self wisdom and many more such huge words could be incorporated into it. When we know everything, then why we do not accept the facts when they are before us.
You gradually start knowing people around you, and then you think “should i like him/her”. But we merely know when we have already started liking him / her. Then you start trying to take the lead like managing things cordially, start rejuvenating your aspirations, care for others. Even when there is paucity of time to accomplish office and home tasks which are a never ending list, you find enough time to do things for someone who has hardly asked for or has set out any expectation from you. Now, this is truly and madly a soaked in love scenario. Is it really a love ? So sure about what all your sense organs say and the entire body is depicting?
Now, when it comes to some good to great situation, suddenly a climax comes. Just a small incidence was enough to have an in-depth know how about …. yourself. He or she does not trust you. And what made you realize this? Just a small incidence. Well, when you were totally engrossed into him / her, there were immense of incidences across, but were they not adequate to give you this acknowledgement which you have today? There is no answer for this i guess.
What next ? Stop thinking about him/her. Divert yourself. Do what ever you feel like what you have aspired for? Not again….
Such situations keep coming like rotation shift in our life, and whether we learn something form them or not, we get our self entertainment mode on for sometime. And believe it or not, we say that when you are in someone’s good company, your life’s meaning is changed and you are highly motivated. But actually we do nothing fruitful during that period except investing time in non-profit activities. Rather, when we come out of it, we get super duper charged up to do our tasks and we achieve results just like anything. So from where does this motivation comes? the credit goes to that someone or you are the one?
I don’t know for how long this self motivation is going to work for me, until the next distraction is on my way to life.